i love you and goodbye.

dear zack. i tend to write you a letter everytime you leave me. a letter that i think you will most likely never read. you always end up finding it somehow. :) like when you left for college.. i wrote all the things i missed about us. all the things we did together and all our inside jokes. tonight, i write you this letter because i want to letyou know that i love my big brother. you left me a week and four days ago. and you wont be back this time. for seven hundred and nineteen days. one year, fifty weeks, and three days to be exact. i miss you already. im always wondering where you are and what you are doing. and when i sit on the couch at two in the morning i wait for you to walk through the door so we can immediately go watch friends. but i eventually fall asleep and in the morning you are not there. although i know you have to be gone, and for good reason, haha, i cant help but want you to come back. im all alone with the parentals these days. i have no outlet for my "freakish/weirdest person you will ever meet" ways. just wanted to tell you that you are seriously the best big brother and the best friend that any little sister in the world could ever have. we have gotten so close as we have gotten older. everythings changing now that were older, and im not sure that i like it. but i know itsgonna get better. i cant believe that my brother, my best friend is gone. but i love that you would never give up what your doing. you are so strong and such an amazing example to me. you are one of a kind, kid. matt and trevor said they would be my new big brothers, but dude, you definitely are irreplacable. the day you come home will be the happiest day for me. and i cant wait. untill then, i know that you will be so amazing at everything you are going to do. you will have so much success because you are such an awesome kid and i love you for that. thank you for everythin you have ever done for me. i love you and goodbye. love syd.

collaboration of thoughts.

sometimes i feel like i preach loudly, but with my hands over my own ears. and when really the only person that needs to listen is myself. i dont want to be anything other than me. im surronded by liars. imposters. am i the only one to notice? i cant be the only one whos learned. im tired of wondering who im supposed to be. part of knowing where im going is knowing where im coming from. i just want to be me. now i know better. i believe everything happens for a reason. people change. and things go wrong. and sometimes good things fall apart. but it makes you learn to appreciate the right things and lets you learn to let go. and sometimes better things fall together. but through all of this i will not let my fire go out. spark by irreplaceable spark. i will not let the hero in my soul vanish. my life is all over the place. a mess. but i love life. and this is the road to the new world. this past week with him leaving.. ive done a lot of thinking. i cant have theose crazy conversations about all our views and basically everything anymore. so ill just tell you a few things ive been thinking about lately. ive come to a conclusion. dont criticize. condemn. or complain. especially dont complain. and give honest and sincere appreciation. sometimes the chance will slip through your fingers and it wont come back and you will definitely regret not telling someone how much you appreciate them. trust me i know. once in a while people step up. rise above themselves. sometimes they fall short. life is funny sometimes. it can push pretty hard. but if you look close enough, you can find hope. in the words of children, in the bars of a song. or in the eyes of someone you love. and if your lucky, the luckiest person on the planet, that person might decide to love you back. the end. ps sometimes they fall short.

Some Things Never Change.

GO IF TIGERS!!!

We won the emotion bowl!!! and nobody thought we could do it!

Top sixth rivalry in the nation IF TIGERS vs SKYLINE GRIZZLES it was an amazing night. and when it was over i was in such amazing blissful high school happiness and i know it cant get much better than this! (even though it was snowing and im pretty sure i had frostbite! :) yayayayayyaya! haha

Front Row Standing:)

Waiting For The Game To Start!

We Love Pain Train!

Oh Girls Fed... haha

Happy Faces!

The Game!

WiSH

Make a wish, Place it in your heart.

Anything you want, Everything you want.

Do you have it? Good.

Now believe it can come true.

You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from.

The next smile, The next wish come true...

But if you believe that it is right around the corner,

And you open your mind and heart,

The possibility of it, The certainty of it,

You just might get the thing your wishing for.

The world is full of magic.

You just have to believe in it.

So make your wish.

Do you have it? Good.

Now believe in it with all your heart.

so long sweet summer...

summertime and the livins easy... well once again summer is almost over and has gone by WAAYYY to fast! but this time it feels different.. like ive learned so much this summer and maybe now i actually am growing up. weird. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Summer 2009 Memories... --lasst year of girls camp! thank goodness. :) --workin 9 to 5 at the PITA PIT. workaholic as usual, i cant ever seem to quit but i sure am sick of smelling like pit. haha hopefully this year i can start something new. --4th of July parade with BOYS&GIRLS FED. interesting experience but it was fun.. even though i got dragged behind the float.. in a tipped over wheelchair! ouch. --CANCUN FAMILY VACATION. beachin it up. snorkeling and cliff jumping and jungle cruising and all the mexican food and mayan ruins and valladoled and getting pulled over multiple time and paying of cops. all i have to say this was the best trip ever and i have the best famillyy EVERRRRR! --Zack got his mission call.. Atlanta,Georgia. Spanish Speaking! my bestest buddy is leaving me for two whhhooolleeee years. i might die.. although i could do without getting water ballooned by you and your gay friends hahaha --endless nights of watching Friends and my new obsession of One Tree Hill.. which was mostly the cause of the late nights and late mornings. --my clothing habits have reached and all time high.. which in my opinion is a great thing.. but mother doesnt quite agree. SAVING MONEY=BAD;) --my last late night bertos trip of the summer occured last night.. cheese quesidilla and horchata at 2 in the morning.. you will be missed. --cabin time with the McQuiveys! it wasnt the same without ri guy though. --weekend with rileys farewell and maisons baptism. FABBBUULOUSS --clayne and jackies fiftieth wedding anniversary/family reunion! this was the best weekend with the fam in forever. i love you chonnny and mo mo and sierrraaaa! --adventures of june 20th.. 3AM. need i say more? --moving on with my life finaallyyyy hahaha. --a surprisingly great accomplishment.. never getting pulled over or in an accident even with all the car shaking dance parties. --BOATING! finally learning to surf and wakeboard. im going pro fa shoooo! --start of summer skinnydip? sanddunes? and sleepovers? 10 things i hate about you? all the books? and all the music? all the friends? and the crushes? and all the love. This summer has been one of the best i have had.. but if one tops it i wont be mad :) as funny as it sounds im ready for school to start and keep making high school memories! haha THIS COULD BE THE START OF SOMETHING NEW! SO DASHBOARD.. Take It Awaay.. So Long Sweet Summer. I Stumbled Upon You And Gratefully Basked In Your Rays. So Long Sweet Summer. I fell Into You, Now You're Gracefully Falling Away. Hey Thanks, Thanks For That Summer. Its Cold Where You're Going.. I Hope That Your Hearts Always Warm. I Gave

You The Best, Gave You The Best That I Had.

SO LONG SWEET SUMMERRRRRR.

Hecho En Mexico!

I cannot even describe to you how much i LOVE family vacations! I'll be the first to admit... my family is.. lets put it this way.. we are somewhat DIffErent. hahaha!but in a good way! This years vacation to Cancun, Mexico was the best family memories EVER!
We went to church in Cancun Centro.. bribed a cop on the way.. and ended up meeting some very good looking Mexican Mormon Boys!! :) :)

Me and Zack and Blair caught SEBASTIAN in the ocean and let him live in our bath tub!
Saw the Mayan Ruins at Chichen Itza! The best day by far.. and bought ten pairs of sandals in Valladoled! I think the sandal maker made his quota that day haha.
SISTERLY AFFECTION
Family Pictures on the Beach!
dooontt forgett about the henna tatoos! im so sad this is our last vacation together untill zack gets home from his mission :( but im so glad that our family is so close and i cant wait to share many more MEMORIES!

g&g fifty fifth wedding anniversary

FAMILY REUNION

how you stay married to the same guy for fifty five years is a mystery to me!

CONGRATULATIONS GRANDPA AND GRANDPA SALVESEN!

this weekend was a blast and hope to have many more with you.

clayne&jackie

sisterly love

watching the grandkids

chicken fights!