collaboration of thoughts.

sometimes i feel like i preach loudly, but with my hands over my own ears. and when really the only person that needs to listen is myself. i dont want to be anything other than me. im surronded by liars. imposters. am i the only one to notice? i cant be the only one whos learned. im tired of wondering who im supposed to be. part of knowing where im going is knowing where im coming from. i just want to be me. now i know better. i believe everything happens for a reason. people change. and things go wrong. and sometimes good things fall apart. but it makes you learn to appreciate the right things and lets you learn to let go. and sometimes better things fall together. but through all of this i will not let my fire go out. spark by irreplaceable spark. i will not let the hero in my soul vanish. my life is all over the place. a mess. but i love life. and this is the road to the new world. this past week with him leaving.. ive done a lot of thinking. i cant have theose crazy conversations about all our views and basically everything anymore. so ill just tell you a few things ive been thinking about lately. ive come to a conclusion. dont criticize. condemn. or complain. especially dont complain. and give honest and sincere appreciation. sometimes the chance will slip through your fingers and it wont come back and you will definitely regret not telling someone how much you appreciate them. trust me i know. once in a while people step up. rise above themselves. sometimes they fall short. life is funny sometimes. it can push pretty hard. but if you look close enough, you can find hope. in the words of children, in the bars of a song. or in the eyes of someone you love. and if your lucky, the luckiest person on the planet, that person might decide to love you back. the end. ps sometimes they fall short.